Sometimes late at night when I can’t fall asleep
My crowded thoughts take over, they go way down deep
They rest among my hopes and dreams and cage them like a vine
Their thorns that pierce my heart leave me anything but fine
I try and try to fight it off and push it all away
But they only seem to get closer still, I can’t keep them at bay
They push me down into the pit of darkness and despair
My efforts aren’t working, this confusion I can’t bear
The deeper down I go, the higher the walls climb
My options are getting slimmer, I’m running out of time
And as I might be gone, a small sound escapes from me
A tiny hallelujah rings where I never thought there’d be
It plays within the weakness and in my emptiness it sings
The end of my small strength is the beginning of His wings
That cover me with feathers, and shield me from the fire
That guide me on His path, and lead me to what’s higher
I break down from exhaustion, He says, “my child I’m right here
It’s okay that you’re out of strength, I promise I’ll stay near
The shame that clouds your thoughts that is always the loudest voice
Is not from me my daughter, I only call you to rejoice
So let me hold you close and shepherd you through the mist
You don’t have to look ahead, and let this fear persist
All you have to do is look upon my face
I think you’ll finally see that I am full of grace
I’ll never come down on you hard or give you more than you can bear
I have so much love for you, I’m overflowing with gentle care
And I will lift you up in time and you will see that all along
I was making you who you’re meant to be, with me you will belong”
Who knew all of this could come from just a whisper of small praise
But singing in the storm has lit my faith ablaze
I’m not saying that it’s not hard, that I don’t have the fear
It still cages me in sometimes, makes life anything but clear
But even if my hallelujah is the smallest one of all
I’m moving forward every day, even if it’s a crawl
Some days my heart aches at even the smallest things
But still my song of praise is there, and in my soul it rings
I’m still on the journey, and I will be for a while
But I will carry joy with me through every twist and trial
So I turn my head to my Savior’s face and choose not to look ahead
I will fix my eyes on him and fully trust instead
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